My heart has been heavy and I’m surprised that I haven’t written. Currently, I’m carrying for eight 4 week old golden retriever puppies. It’s always been a very humbling experience to assist in delivery and care for the puppies. It definitely lights up my life. Not working full time allows me time to give to the puppies. I am Doordashing, going to therapy, physical therapy and going to the gym. A little savings, a roommate and Doordash has allowed me to concentrate on my mental health which is so important and something I really need. This year has given me three major lessons in loss…my business, my dog and my brother. The loss of business has really taught me to value the present and the reality that you can bust your butt and overwork yourself and circumstances may give a 180 degree twist to your reality. I miss my dog and brother so much. I am strong, they are hurting and are no longer tired.
I have also dealt with the frustration of identity theft which has added high levels of stress and anxiety. Breathing and taking time for my own happiness and recognizing my own self-worth has kept me grounded and not allowed worry or self-pity to take over. This I am truly grateful for. I love this outlet and connecting with readers who relate and will continue to learn, grow and be grateful and hope that you remember to breathe and know that you are not alone.
The Beauty Mark 