Reflection….

As I sit here and reflect on the past year, I see a change in myself. I feel strong, I feel different, I feel empowered. It is unreal how grief can affect your psyche. So much doubt enters your thoughts. Some days, I feel like I’m on summer break. Other days, I feel like I’m right where I should be. I need to remember to give myself credit. I deserve love. I deserve to believe in joy. I deserve to let go. Let go of the pain that I’m holding inside. Let go of clutter that is making too much noise in my space. I feel relief in my heart and head and look forward to what is to come. Doing the work, I see more brightness. I feel weight lifted off of my chest.

Manifesting and invisioning positivity does bring positive change. Journaling and meditation does bring growth and calmness. Anxiety and depression can pull you into a deep negative space. It can be hard to escape. I am not alone, as you are not alone. Letting go of the pain inside becomes easier everyday. As I work part time, I make time to write, exercise, play with my dog, and go through my house to declutter the things that no longer serve a purpose. Asking myself, am I going to use this right now? Going to doctor’s appointments and therapists to really make a change and take care of my mental and physical health. It is ok when you change your pace. It is ok that priorities change. It is ok to let go and feel renewed and allow yourself to change and evolve.

Finding different outlets to release any pressures in life…and remembering to breathe and take care of yourself.